So now that I find myself in my new reality, everything that was important before doesn't quite hold up as well. That, unfortunately, includes the most rewarding romantic relationship I have had to date. While I have found this inner peace and joy, my partner is still living in a world that I have very little interest in. The ladder-climbing, beef-eating, alcohol-drinking pleasures of my yesteryear are still very present within him. And at times, it feels like it'll break us. How, I ask myself, am I supposed to live in this new spiritual space when I have to share such mundane activities with the person I love? Even our points of view are different. I'm full of hope and faith, he seems to only see the problems at hand. And while he is a very patient, loving and supportive person, I sometimes feel that it's more in theory rather than in the flesh. Does that make sense? It's like he can talk the talk, but his walk is not as stern as it should be.
What I am concluding, for now anyways, is that I have to accept him and let him be. I cant force anyone to change, after all, no one forced me to change. It was, for me, the inevitable evolution of my own consciousness finally arriving. And I know it'll happen to him as well. He's too smart not to get it. The journey at hand, nevertheless, seems long and full of defensive neediness. Am I going to be there to see his transformation? I surely hope so. In the meantime, we'll take it one day at a time. I have to focus on setting an example and constantly improving my standards, so that, at the very least, he can see what I do and how beneficial it all is for me. Either way, I'm glad that I get to share this piece of me with someone as special as he is.
It's all about balance, and he is one way I stay grounded for sure. Letting it be. We are, after all, flawed human beings trying our best to love unconditionally other flawed human beings.
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